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all my to do list all my planning is mess up just because a wishy washy boss just too bad for me T-T

 I feel frustrated about my surrounding. hate them all. hate everything. hate every voice. hate every face. hate every kind of attitude. i want to screaming! yelling! Punch thing! and them! i just want to make everything be easy not for me! but for them! and this is what i get. talk in my back. hah.. funny. i want to talk about it with my friend, but i know, i am too bad for my decision. too rush maybe? but they want i moved fastly. so, that what can i do. hmmm.. i want to go home!!!!!!!!!!!!! i, for this time, for just now, hate this place. just because they are. btw, just now, i got feeling that i get wrong time for facing the principal. his eyes so red. i think he have a quarrel again with his girlfriend. hahhhh.. time will be hard again.  and one more time, i hate it. somewhere of myself, i feel depressed about a thing today.. some word come to my mind, the energy is a immortal thing. and if you blow up your negative energy, that energy will just stay and wrap you up then tag a lon

 i've got the richest dream last night than any night before. just b'coz i look some message on my social media. i saw my nephew dancing like a korean idol style, that's look amazing in his age. In their white costume on line outer, plus glasses. they look so cute 😆 after that, my dream change the slice of kind story that talk about situation in this nati*n. our nati*n be very truthfully, with anyone that i don't know who they are. where the procedure is much be better than in reality, when sometime any employee in a company or civ*l service need to got some signature to do their document work, not difficult anymore just because the upper not in the mood 😂 and then, change the slice again to the school, to be merrier class. but once again, that is just a dream 👀👀

 ahhaa.. i think i got a new challenge right now?? 😂😂 just funny to suddenly hear new task from my boss after the previous challange to be a treasurer, n now, i must be a builder at my first year at job, no but at my half year !! 😂😂 it just flow up at my head, are you kidding me? hahaaa... but i think again, well, why not. i take the challange 😜

do not read, it will make you get some headache with my bad language just for myself Someone who i know not long time ago at my last office, invite me, no, more like ask me to invite in a job that i do last time. He ask me, am i apply to be individual consultant at my old office or not. Well, actually, beside that job is really tiring my emotional, i like it. I like my colleague. but i don't know, i hate one of them that actually my direct supervisor at office. The childish person that i know. I admitted he is a smart person, but just IQ, not EQ nor SQ. Bad. Looking situation just from one side when that mean is really-really wrong conclusion. I just really won't to meet him again. I don't hate him, but if i can, i won't to meet or just passing by with him. just because a complicated reason that i confused how to tell or write it. And because of that, i tell to he who ask me before to join be individual consultant at his yuridiction that i am will not join with them, al

my english is so bad but when i curhat in bahasa, i fell shy so whatever this is just for my self don't try to read if you don't want to get headache with it. Waw oh waw.. Still same although not same at the first sight. I still want to go home. Still feeling uncomfortable at the new place, where I just a guest in here. Actually, I feel not confident about myself about teach. And before that, I am not confident about a place that I want to stay in this first years that I give my time in a new place like here. May I just stay at their home with a half price than the other place but with a master house, or I just search the other place that take a month price, or company with my old friend that I forgot about her face for together rent a house. Hmm.. I still wanna go home. The most comfortable place to me. Actually, I just want to have my own place. But, alone is bad. And more important from that is I don’t have enough money to get home or rent a house for myself. hhhh i don'