celoteh

my english is so bad
but when i curhat in bahasa, i fell shy
so whatever
this is just for my self

don't try to read if you don't want to get headache with it.

Waw oh waw..

Still same although not same at the first sight. I still want to go home. Still feeling uncomfortable at the new place, where I just a guest in here.

Actually, I feel not confident about myself about teach. And before that, I am not confident about a place that I want to stay in this first years that I give my time in a new place like here. May I just stay at their home with a half price than the other place but with a master house, or I just search the other place that take a month price, or company with my old friend that I forgot about her face for together rent a house. Hmm.. I still wanna go home. The most comfortable place to me. Actually, I just want to have my own place. But, alone is bad. And more important from that is I don’t have enough money to get home or rent a house for myself. hhhh

i don't know what must to do here. i still not comfortable to do anything because i don't think this is my area. if i do something, that will be so.. what can i say about this hard feeling. but, if i don't do anything, this is so ignorant n harm to the owner, although the owner is my friend. she or her mom or her other famuly just say to me to just stay in here. but, i think, to live with friend is just bad. everything will be hard to the future, because always together can be melunturkan our friendship. well, i don't know the word can picture my uncomfortable feeling again. it's so complicated. and again and again, i just want to sigh. i don't know why. i just love my own home at Nagasari. oh my sweet home with my mom and dad and ofcourse my kitty, cingi and yongi. i love them. a lot. miss them. a lot. i still wanna cry when i remember cingi an d yongi who always stand beside me an everytime, day and night, playing and angry, eating and sleeping. i miss them.