but when i curhat in bahasa, i fell shy
so whatever
this is just for my self
Waw oh waw..
Still same although not same at the first sight. I still want to go home. Still feeling uncomfortable at the new place, where I just a guest in here.
Actually, I feel not confident about myself about teach. And before that, I am not confident about a place that I want to stay in this first years that I give my time in a new place like here. May I just stay at their home with a half price than the other place but with a master house, or I just search the other place that take a month price, or company with my old friend that I forgot about her face for together rent a house. Hmm.. I still wanna go home. The most comfortable place to me. Actually, I just want to have my own place. But, alone is bad. And more important from that is I don’t have enough money to get home or rent a house for myself. hhhh
i don't know what must to do here. i still not comfortable to do anything because i don't think this is my area. if i do something, that will be so.. what can i say about this hard feeling. but, if i don't do anything, this is so ignorant n harm to the owner, although the owner is my friend. she or her mom or her other famuly just say to me to just stay in here. but, i think, to live with friend is just bad. everything will be hard to the future, because always together can be melunturkan our friendship. well, i don't know the word can picture my uncomfortable feeling again. it's so complicated. and again and again, i just want to sigh. i don't know why. i just love my own home at Nagasari. oh my sweet home with my mom and dad and ofcourse my kitty, cingi and yongi. i love them. a lot. miss them. a lot. i still wanna cry when i remember cingi an d yongi who always stand beside me an everytime, day and night, playing and angry, eating and sleeping. i miss them.
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